Wednesday, 5 October 2011

what u give u"ll get back...

is that true the statement of the title..?
perhaps so,but sometimes it comes with bias.. just hoping for something are better than never..

hmmm,as for today.. 5th october 2011.. was the unlucky day for me..
it always came with 5th number if the bad day came after me.
started from the beginning of the day,i knew that something wrong will come across me. and i was right!
just missed somebody that i considered as important as my parents. really- really missed *** and without knowing i have called *** number. so glad to heard that the cell is still ringing. but then,i just waited for the miracles. yet it came! but, i'm quite happy with that miracle till my heart felt like pumping out of the rib..!
what should i do? i just pretend to be as happy as i really am. for the whole day no one noticed for my changes. well,i'm a good actor though.huh..*sigh*

Dusk out, everything just like unbalanced with the daily life. i just cant be like my normal me.
then i just be silent and let the evening goes as it came.
night appeared. still the same as the first. don't know how to translate anymore. eating is the best way!
bored right? keep moving..

just to say that the statement are sometimes worrying others. people like me will always came with this feeling.
i do love someone too much! but, what i get are not as the same as i gave. little disappointed  but i tried to be more tough as well as i come to this world. alone with the tear-out-loud accompanied, then someone to be called as "safer" take me out from a woman's womb that i used to be alone.

every day i ask from HIM to let *** love me as much as i do. with no power around, i cant change *** like my desired. i just want *** to love me back like i always do. kind of scary wishing but that is enough for me if i knew that *** will reflected  my  love towards ***.

again,miracles that i wished to meet.

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